remember that time i bummed everyone out?

Raise your hand if you've ever been in a funk and don't know how to pull yourself out of it.

(if all of your hands aren't raised right now I will be severely disappointed - not because you've never been in that kind of funk, but because you're not willing to raise your hand when you're alone at your computer being asked a question by a random blogger who can't see you raise your hand or not)


I've been all in my head lately. My resolve for Lent to give up worry has not been going well. The past couple weeks have been so miserable outside, with few reprieves, and that has only furthered my latest pastime of hermitting up in my apartment and feeling sorry for myself.

Have you ever realized that even though you have virtually everything, when you don't have the one thing you want most you feel like you have nothing?

I'm not ungrateful for all of the blessings in my life. Please know that. I have far more than anyone deserves. But I am plagued by one thing and it's just gnawing at me, making me crazy. And making me just... Sad. 

And I hate it. 


Sorry for the downer post.

Just had to get that out. 

I suppose what I'm getting at is an apology for being a little sporadic with posting lately. 

And an apology to my friends who I have been seriously neglecting. 

This is the curse of the introvert - when things hit the fan, I hole myself up and go a little catatonic. 

On that note, I'm working really hard to just trust life a little, trust God a lot, and hold on to a little bit of hope. 

Always optimistic. 

Because what's the point of being anything but optimistic?


  1. Optimism is key, you've got that right.

    I'm sorry to hear you're in a funk. I think we all go through those from time to time. It's totally normal to keep it all in, but I bet it wouldn't hurt to get some of your thoughts out... to a person, on paper, just being said aloud to yourself. You never know, it may help! And if you ever need someone to talk to, I'm happy to be of service. I've been told I'm a good listener. :)

    I hope the weather clears up and your days get brighter very soon!!

    P.S. I actually felt a little dumb for not raising my hand alone in front of my computer.... don't worry...I will next time. ;)

  2. I disagree about the optimist part. I don't remember where I heard this, but I always look at things with a pessimistic slant so if things do go wrong I'm not disappointed. Yeah, I always hope for the best and keep my fingers crossed that everything will turn out the way that I want it to--but that's just not realistic. You have to see both sides of the story, the good and the bad, and prepare yourself for those outcomes. That's just me though. You'll buck up soon, lady. You've got the camaraderie on your side :)

  3. eh, sometimes do you need to be in a mood. I do it too. But I do hope you are feeling better and can get what you need soon.

  4. Hey! I wish I saw this sooner, so sorry for the funk! I totally know how that goes and it can be all consuming. Hang in there. Let me know if you need a cheerleader. (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

  5. I completely understand your funk. I tend to fall into those quite a lot myself. Then I kind of have to mentally slap myself for being this way when I have the whole world at my fingertips and stand up. Also, after I throw out everything I'm stressing about to God, He usually tends to help me out. :)